Once again i wish to walk an unknown path!!!

Once again i wish to walk an unknown path!!!

There are many who are trying very hard to reach where i have reached. For millions, this is the dream of their lives..

But here i am, a stupid, confused soul, who wants to leave all that has been achieved. And take a new path again.

Oh God! Am i being selfish? Am i just fooling my own self and making another mistake?

However, this is not the first time i m making a mistake i guess. I had learnt from them only.

In my two different lives, one, where they all know me. They all respect me or atleast pretend that they respect. They value my efforts and my word, or at least pretend that they like them. I am something a known figure. I do not have to think twice before doing anything. I am in my comfort zone.

I can lead a very comfortable life, an upper middle class life. Yes i think i have been able to bring my family from middle class or upper middle class.

But, here in the second life i live, i am no one to everyone. For them, i am just another guy, waiting in the long queue of infinite number of people.

They will ask me... "What is your name?"... "Kisse milna hai?"... "Okay! Go and stand there"... "Are, yahaan mat bethon"...

I do all what they say. After all i have to start again. Start again from scratch. At times, it feels like giving up and going back to my comfort zone from first life. But, i do not know what keeps me going. What makes me do it and do it again and again. I am scared i might die just trying. Just trying.

My dear god, please give me that power again to make it big here as well.

Once again i wish to walk an unknown path!!!